The little friend

1. That which you seek does not exist
2. this longing reminiscent of:
3. hidden chambers, fancy locks and rusted keys, vertigous staircases
4. from: dreams, art photography, German films
5. black & white though mostly yellow, set in 1930s,
6. with boys in sailor suits
7. spying on carnal secrets in musty bedrooms
8. vacant streets from disaster films:
9. everyone dies except for the boy
10. hiding from zombies (that crouch in the back of our heads)
11. running across the city square
12. nobody talks about the camps and cattle trains filled with people
13. and we all pretend that it's a story of austerity and loss of green fields
14. This feeling terrible but complete,
15. this place unknown outside inner spaces
16. one suspects it but cannot touch
17. in J.C's boxes,
18. indescribable collages juxtaposing the impossible with the unsaid
19. perfect accord of their separtely attained truths
20. some questionable
21. Your truths cannot be described
22. tin dolls with painted faces, eerie ballerinas
23. with eyelashes of copper, smells never yet described
24. places
25. of which nothing can be said
26. they don't exist
27. this is their residing place
28. – the nowhere
29. – the never
30. – the now